...and im swept away

You Were Naughty This Year

You Were 80% Naughty, 20% Nice You may not have been good this year... But you sure had a really good time. And nothing from Santa could top that!

that's no surprise


dear santa,

i'm trying to be good i really am. i'll try better in the next 22 days.

Love,

Ashley

Your Celebrity Boob Twin:

Carmen Electra

ohh weekends and boredum

so im leaving tomorrow for annapolis, maryland for the cousins gradutaion from the naval academy. i went to the mall today to get a white blazer, cuz my red dress for the graduation is strapless. i get to see vice president, hes speaking. and yes i will be terribly bored and be calling/texting all of you.

see you guys saturday! (ohh saturday i can't wait!)

xoxo
ash

guess who hasn't updated in 1 day shy of a month! (me lol) i'm so corny

so spring break has been amazing too bad we only have a couple days left but im still enjoying it and the nice weather we are having here

so starting with friday the 10....

friday-soccer game we lost, and i managed to get knocked down by people who were so much taller then me that i was getting hit in the ear by elbows, still fun playing at night though

saturday-went to mikes =D! and then slept over my grandma's house in hazlet

sunday- spent the day going through my grandma's closets with her and then driving her back to my house for dinner and then finished painting my new room

monday-went shopping with mommy and the the sisters and then went to the cornerstone cafe for open mic night with justin and keith

tuesday- visited my shannon with mike and chilled with howell people

wednesday- had to go get a nail out of my tires at like 11 am and my dad made me go to stafford tires in middletown, so then i went out to lunch with my aunt to houlihans. then i went to james' and we went t0o dairy queen, barnes and noble, burger king and then to max's and the back to james' to watch antm!!

thursday- i went to a passover seder with mike and his family. it was fun i had never been to anything like that before and tried a whole lot of foods i have never even seen before.

yesterday- my grandpa was in from california and took my family out to lunch. then mike came to pick me up cuz i left my car at his house cuz it was too late for me to drive home on thursday, and watched movies, and had chinese food and fun stuff with mike

today- i got my hair cut and its shorter then i thought it was going to be, but no relaly big surpirses its not dyed or anything and val wants to go to red bank and i think im going too

enjoy the rest of break kids and happy easter and passover

so glamour has the "15 Big, fat lies we tell ourselves" and most of them are worth sharing but idk if some of the are lies or maybe its just wat is liked to be believed. so yea the magazine left comments but i'd like to leave my own and anyone who wants to leave comments feel free to do so.

1. Everything would be great if I lost weight/quit my job/ got a man etc.
umm yea i guess its really nice to think that way but the world doesn't work that way

2. Hard work speaks for itself. I don't need to ask for recognition.
unfortunatly unless you put yourself out there any etc and show wat you've done in a raving display, no one will give u recognition most of the time

3. He really loves me; he's just afraid to commit.
if he really loved you he would of commited already, duh

4. They'll never know I lied.
may be true but it doesn't help you from feeling anyless guilty about lying, unless you have no soul

5. He cheated on her, but he wouldn't ever cheat on me.
once a cheater, always a cheater? truthfully i don't know. if he liked u enough he'd never cheat on you

6. I just couldn't say no.
you can always say no!

7. Some people have all the luck (and i'm not one of them)
i guess it can look that way but if your gonna be that much of a downer then you're gonna be stuck like that forever, if you think up, you'll be up

8. I can quit anytime
if you can quit you're bad habits anytime, they why haven't you already

9. If i looked like Sienna Milla, everything would be easy.
since i don't know who that is i'll assume a celebrity type person, that would be nice but i guess even that has it downfaults

10. I'll buy it but only after I lose some weight
unless you are already losing weight, you're never gonna get it

11. Nobody appreciates my genius.
maybe you really aren't a genius otherwise people would already appreciate you or maybe you just haven't stepped out of you're box yet

12. A little tan won't hurt.
yes even pale people like me enjoy being tan even though no one believes i tan, bit wrinkles and cancer gross

13. Sure I'd love to go.
say it only if you mean it, otherwise waste of time

14. I don't need any help.
everyone needs help sometimes

15. If I had time I'd wrote a book/ exercise more/ go back to school, etc
everyone is busy and if it's something you truly love you'd do it, unless you're afraid toi

so yay for my insight on magazine issues

finally saturday thursday night i was so confused and i didnt realize what day it was so friday was a surprise a nice surprise. i wish we had a delayed opening thursday moringing i was completly out of it and i only had like half my uniform. i wasnt too much better on that on friday but its nice that u find the same ppl in the bathroom to talk to every morning. my systems web folio was completly messed up, but it all go worked out at lunch. yea val and me screaming cuz the smiles werent leaving our faces after lunch was surprisingly enjoyable. after school i got to go my brothers confirmation practice where the ppl doing it needed to find where they made marbles cuz theres were so lost they werent coming back. like seriously ppl everyone in this room is 13 to like old so why do u need to talk to us like we are five and have us practice songs that we can read off a paper. i drove home and freaked my brother out, ohh well i guess i won't have the problem that everyone else has of their siblings wanting them to drive them places, his loss. mike picked me up and i went back to his house. =D. and we watched movies and had pizza with mexican cheese and artichokes hehe. on the way home we saw amanda at wawa yay for hot chocolate.

today should be interesting cn boys basketball second state game weird right? it was a surprise win. i'm kinda happy they won cuz its nice but kinda not cuz i don't feel like wasting my saturday and i might have to ride the bus bymyself. oh well. should be interesting.

[Edit as of 11: 30pm]
they lost the game. so it was the official last game of the season and connie did ride the bus with me yay! so not to worry lori. connie and i went out to eat at ruby tuesday's after the game. we also got stuck in a shopping center. tres tres amusant. ohh and i finished the thirs gossip girl because i know someone will care hehe. night

so its march first spring weather here we coming, i love how theres always new beginnings, beginnings of new months new weeks new days new hours. there should be like millions of chances to start new and change. i like change most of the time. like that fresh breath of air. i've been trying to see things in a nice light and its working cuz even the muddy puddles sparkle in the sunlight. so hopefully i'll get my act together with school work and other shit. but all i really want to do is sleep and read. i've been having so much fun reading gossip girl with nikki like religiously and talking about how we are going to go to the city. we will party it up. the stupid boys desided to make fun of it and tell me to go read a cook book and i told them they can clean my house when i'm rich and i mean it, i'll be rich but they wont have to clean my house they can look at it, i wouldnt want them to clean they will probably be bad at it with their anti-women bullshit. oh well.

in the words of mary j blidge and james no more drama no more drama no more in my liiiiiiiiiife

TEN FIRSTS
First Best Friend: justin
First Hamster: never had one
First Piercing: ears
First Crush: stevie
First CD: cher
First Car: hopefully i'll be getting one soon
First Love: mike =D
First Stuffed Animal: puff-a-lump

NINE LASTS
Last Beverage: water
Last Vehicle Ride: bus home from school
Last Movie Seen: clueless
Last Phone Call: dad telling him to get me soymilk
Last CD Played: fall out boy - take this to your grave
Bubble Bath: umm two/three years ago
Last Time You Cried: february 15th

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: yup
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny dipped: no but its on my to do list
Have you ever been on TV: yes but only like the local channel
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: maybe heh
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone you knew: that would be a yes

SEVEN THINGS YOU'RE WEARING
1. sweatshirt
2. brown shirt
3. white tank top
4. jeans
5. teal underwear
6. bra
7. heart necklace

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. been hugged
2. went to school
3. took the health penis test
4. fell asleep in english
5. had a sandwich
6. watched trl

FIVE FAVORITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. hot showers
2. chinese food/cookie dough ice cream (yea i beat the system at this question)
3. mike
4. summer vacation
5. sleeping

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. mike
2. val
3. amanda
4. savy

THREE CHOICES
1. eat or drink: drink
2. blonde or brunnette: Brunette!!
3. pink or black: pink

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. have a private island to share only with one person hehe
2. see guns and roses live

ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. saving something that i don't feel like repeating

so i've been thinking alot in the past hour and maybe i'll go into more detail tomorrow but basically i want to get myself to the point in which i love myself so much that it won't matter who else does. =]

woah 90's flashback song of the day

( Every day and every night )

so i asked people what they think love is and here is the response...



-i think its being able to be with some one stare into the sunset put your arm around [them] and be completely satisfied. i think it's an extention of friendship. i'd rather go out with my best friend then the most attractive [person]. i know though, attraction is needed.

-hard to explain. i think you know you love someone when their happiness comes first, even over yours sometimes. but it's a fine line, cause you can't hurt yourself for someone else, no one is worth that.

-i guess love would be a feeling of being absolutely complete. having someone to fill that void that you always seem to have. a two piece puzzle separated in a mile long haystack.

-love is lust that never goes away.

-true love is honestly caring about someone to the point where there happiness is at least as important as your own and being with them makes you happier and a better person.

-a connection between people that we can't even begin to comprehend.

-who knows. i don't know.

- i don't know it like when i am with my [gf/bf] i am really happy and like all my problems go away and i like could never get [him/her] off my mind.

- happiness.

-love to me is when the person is on your mind 24/7 and when all you think about is being with that person all of the time. it doesn't necessarily mean that the person doesn't make you cry or is good for you but that you can't live without that person. you can't imagine being with anyone else and when you are with that person you get butterflies in your stomach every single time. it's when you can't wipe that smile off of your face for days and days after you see them or talk to them to the point of where your jaw hurts. it's when you act like a little giddy [person] when you talk to them or see them. seeing them makes your heart race and your palms get sweaty every time. love is when they mean the world to you and when you will give up almost anything to be with them. but love also means that you can let them go if it means they will be happier without you. and if they really love you they'll eventually come back to you.

-Ya know how you feel when you're listening to your favorite song and it's blasted really loud and you're singing along. That absolutely perfect, there's nobody else in the world feeling.

-i have no idea. i think when you find it you just know.



so there are many different kinds of love and i guess that no one really knows what it is and leave a comment or what you think love is

<3 ash

so i continue to read Then he ate my boy entrancers quite wonderful. it is still snowing and i think we are going to have school tomorrow but i really do need to get out of this house i don't even have a room to myself. when the little people do leave my room im locking myself in with movies and books and hw to do possibly.

so i've tried and failed multiple times and i've run out of things to do, so yea i'm just gonna um sit back and dry... things up. yes quite wonderful.

happy snow day

so i have't updated in like 2 weeks and woah its february which is full of birthday's, valentine's day and other important events =] march will be better though jk well for me it will be cuz i will finally be able to drive.

friday was the basketball game at wall, they won and then i got home and just talked online, boring but i enjoyed myself i should relax more lol.

so yea, yesterday i finally got to go out for breakfast, mike took me to turning point in middletown it was good and some old guy talked to us anbout how i was "eyeing mikes frozen hot chocolate (that had a big pile of whip cream on it btw) while he was gone and good thing he was sharing cuz i even took a taste of it while he was gone" kinda strange cuz i couldnt see that old guy from where i was sitting ohh well i had fun. mike helped me babysit natalie and we watch elf. today natalie told my mom she like mike best out of all my bf's, agreed =]. then i went back to mike's house and we went to applebee's with justin and deni. random right? i was surpised too. justin drove me home, good talks fun stuff. then when i got home i talked to val for almost 3 hours nd it was past 3 when we got off the phone but i absolutely love good conversations. they are fun,but then im hyper afterwards. weird dreams last night though when i did fall asleep.

so yea waking up at 1 is wonderful on a sunday and i've been boring cleaning and doing hw and being online. mike's coming over to watch the superbowl with me, my dad and possibly my dad's brothers. yay i get to make snack foods. this weekend hasnt been to bad for me only being allowed out once.

so today didn't feel like a friday but not a thursday. this week didn't drag out at all tonight i get to talk at the gs board meeting whoo and tomorrow is friday and i get to go home with mike =]

today was presentations in systems i didnt go yay and weird to see even ice queens cry from pressure, naval science just the test, lunch was fhs blehh the only person who talks to me there is james, fun stuff, history was the stupid test im done with that class if she gave us notes maybe i wouldnt miss stuff, physics was 50 billion notes passing around the classroom, i enjoy the people in that class.

i wish i could stay in pjs and go to the board meeting im comfortable and i'm not looking forward to changing

so yea today was like freaky weather day, warm and super windy, windy, windy and rainy, pouring rain, and then the sun comes out as we get to go home. ironic of course even more ironic two people told me about murphy's law today. in other news my ipod is having a hardware problem and i have to send it back to apple boo that whore. i do heart my ipod it needs to work.

so yea new revolation of the day: don't be uptight, don't get stressed and stay happy, don't be scared cuz fear can't do anything to you

i'm not scared anymore

( Hey Leonardo I like him for him <3 )

so yea i updated like at midnight but whatever.

saturday i got to hang out with lori and connie, we watched anchoman, met lori's bfs hehe, named lori's bf , made silly videos, ate lots of stuff like mozzeralla sticks, weird chips, kisses, ice cream YAY! and i didnt even have to get dressed. then when i got home i talked to eliza again, mike and mannda

yesterday i woke up at 1 pm accidentally and was really out of it until i woke up fully. mike picked me and i went back to his house to watch 24, its a good show relaly weird that its interesting cause action movies/tv usually make me want to sleep. theres another 2 hours of it on tonight so i think i'll be watching it.

i love three day weekends

( I said maybe )

sometimes you just feel different for no reason in particular, today i feel different. maybe i realized something or maybe i just came to terms with myself. but whatever its was. i feel different and i just have a gut feeling of idk.

( And after all  )